Each piece of ourselves can be viewed as a fetishized object, standing in as a microcosm for the whole self and by extension the whole universe.
We have a relationship with each piece of our body. We own it. It belongs to us. It is us.
We might love some parts, and hate others, but each piece is still a part of the whole. Each piece is there for a reason, and it exists exactly as it must in order for us to be as we are.
If we are to fully be ourselves, we must find a way to accept each part of ourselves. The part that is cruel is as much a part of us as the part that is compassionate, and the part we find ugly is as important as the part we find beautiful.
Fetishism is the focus of attention on a single part of the whole, allowing that piece to temporarily take on the significance of the system to which it belongs. The fetishistic state is by definition temporary. The other pieces do not cease to exist; they merely recede so that the fetishized object may become central.
When each piece of the whole is exalted in turn or in tandem, the sum of those pieces when reassembled is that much greater.
"The Golem" is a project many years in the making, inspired by the magical being from Jewish folklore as well as by voodoo dolls, and the stories of Frankenstein and Pygmalion. Just as I assumed an alter ego when first creating my performances, in this piece I create another body to serve as my physical double. The doll is created from materials of personal significance, including a pair of designer jeans that someone tried to give me in exchange for sex, and it is stuffed with a lifetime of shredded documents. In this clip I sew in the final bit of stuffing, the last hair that was cut from my head in January 2015.
"Specimen" is an installation/performance that I first presented at my home in May 2012, and later presented in a modified form at Antebellum Gallery in September 2013 as well as in a short film by Eric Scot. The piece is inspired partially by stories of alien abductions and alien autopsies, and also by the overt yet alien sexuality of flowering plants (especially the orchid). Photography by Eric Scot and tommy+alan photography.
"Arachnophilia" is a piece inspired by the black widow spider. It was the first of my many performances at Antebellum Gallery in Hollywood between 2013 and 2016.